The ‘State in the Fire’

My most recent free .pdf inspired by the State:

The following is a summary of the retired .pdf document Without the Idea of Death: There is Only Life.

The Interchanging Point I Am

“I am not life, nor am I death. From Me both spring; and through Me both flow both ways toward unity, first in My manifest Self and then in Me, yet I am not touched in both their passings. I am the interchanging point of life and death. I balance life and death; and never in their changing can either death or life outbalance death or life. Write thou that death and life are one, as the swinging pendulum is one, e’en though it oscillates two ways in its incessant swinging.”

The Message of The Divine Iliad

The Realities of Knowing I Am

The Realities of life are Balance, Love, Truth and the Law. These are the qualities of Mind which you cannot see. You can only know them. The unrealities of life you can alone see, for they cannot be known. The Realities are qualities of Mind at rest. The unrealities are quantities of sensed matter in motion.”

Walter & Lao Russell, Universal Law, Natural Science and Philosophy

From a young age, I noticed that sensing didn’t match up with knowing, and I often felt as if I acted and reacted to two different worlds. There was the one world where it seemed I had to act according to the ever-changing, roller-coaster trends of an objectified existence, and the other, my own little world of quiet introspection, where I could withdraw from the senses and simply be.

Love was said to be a reality in the objectified existence taught by the senses; but the senses generally didn’t indicate that to be the case, and, when sensing did seem to indicate the existence of Love, those instances were short-lived and they left behind the sense of loss, of wanting more. The world founded on satisfying the senses and the ego that accompanied them with its database of randomly interpreted sense-based observations often seemed like a scary place – one of great mystery, unwanted surprise, pain and fear. 

As I grew up and was indoctrinated with the status quo of world thinking, depression and anxiety over the passive acceptance of the limitations, programming and belief systems based in viewpoints and opinions adopted from the lead-by-sensing world-ego over-ruled my mental health. I searched in vain for answers outside of my Self, and then in my mid-thirties I surrendered the search for lasting solutions in the empirical. I declared “enlightenment to be my number one goal in life” and I took up spiritual study, meditation and contemplation. 

In my late thirties, while leaving a house fire in the middle of the night, objective perception of time, space and matter spontaneously ceased in a flash as timeless awareness of the qualitative Realities of the Divine Trinity of Light. 

I remained fully aware; at no point did I lose consciousness. The body stayed fully functional and continued to act appropriately, and yet its form completely disappeared into the qualitative knowledge of Balanced Idea and its Expression. The mystery of the two different worlds was resolved as the world of sensing separation disappeared into Balanced Oneness.

Through the senses, Mind cannot become aware of the exquisite, ineffable Realities of the One Being forever knowing and thinking “I Am (LOVE)”. Sensing detects the transient effects of unbalanced thoughts of separation from LOVE seeking their ‘lost source’ and so naturally cannot detect the qualities that exist only in Unity.

While leaving a house fire in the middle of the night, the Nirvana of being disconnected from sensing separation, and thereby knowing Unity, spontaneously occurred as I realized that the only ‘motion’ ever created by God is dynamic ecstasy as one manifests one’s seed pattern in God’s image.

Awareness briefly but completely severed from the field of perception and yet I was wholly aware of my Self as being inseparable from the one Life/ Mind/ Self/ Substance/ Soul of the eternal expression of Balanced Love. At rest in balanced interchange between knowledge and thinking I Am LOVE, Mind and the body of creation were purely known as knowledge and its balanced expression.

For timeless seconds of pure ecstasy that suddenly and completely withdrew consciousness from the limitations of belief in “the unrealities of sensed matter in motion” I knew only “the qualities of Mind at rest” in the absolute nature of Life. Perfectly divided thinking interchanged in still knowing in a rhythmic, balanced fashion, continuously without deviation. Knowing my Self to be the Balancing Point in the wave of Love’s Extension, I knew absolute satiation/complete satisfaction. 

As awareness gently severed from the perceptual field of duality, I found my Self to be eternally at rest in the seemingly once-veiled awareness of divine knowledge and thinking. I “returned” to the absolute familiarity of the still, centering Soul of Me that I could never leave and have never left, and all that was “there” was my pure Identity – my unabashed Self, at rest in the Beingness of Pure Love.

In the State in the fire, as I came to call it, I knew I had never left, and could never leave, the eternal rest of my Soul in the Point of Life’s Idea and Expression. The qualitative revelation of Oneness with “the interchanging point” that is the balancing control center of all moving effects left me wholly aware of eternal Life, without the idea of death.

“Man alone of all My creating things hath begun to hear My whisperings. Since his beginning My still small Voice hath whispered within him that I am he and he Me…”

(The Message of The Divine Iliad)

My husband and I were alerted around 4:00 am that the attached garage of the house was on fire. As we were about to gather up our child and our pets and get to safety, it seemed as if everything suddenly became very still. In spontaneous agreement, I mentally “leaned” all the way into this stillness as a familiar Internal Voice gently, but clearly said, “You don’t have to be here for this”. As I agreed, I instantly ceased identifying with the senses.

After distinct stages of subjectively appearing and disappearing dimension that happened/unhappened in a lightening-fast sequence of testimony to inner frames of reference, detecting duality altogether stopped. Awareness then fully withdrew into Oneness with the rest-point “fulcrum” or dividing equator of stillness centering the “concentrative/decentrative” thinking of Mind.

The “interchanging point of life and death” is also known as the Divine Trinity of Light, aka the one Idea or knowledge of Creation and its dual-bodied, bright light/dark light expression, eternally qualitatively known in its totality by the Realities of perfectly balanced thinking expressing that knowledge. Awareness went from sensing effects of the belief in separation to qualitatively knowing the ecstatic, eternal rhythms of Mind.

The first stage of severance from objectivity was as if I was gently lifted out of the body. Seeming dimension was deconstructed via the next two stages that were flashes of awareness of Oneness with the incandescent light of the sun, and then one with the dark, virtually motion-less, evacuated-of-light, perfect spherical black body of virtually motionless space that is the other equal “half-in-reverse” of incandescence. I became as if centrally one with first the radiating half of the expression of Life, and then with the concentrating half. Together, wholly dependent on one another for the expression of both, are the light and dark thought rings of the sun (flowering of seed) and the back hole (seed pattern of flowering), and all other systems that mutually extend from Stillness and functionally simulate the universal seed pattern into flower and back to seed pattern for re-expression prototype. Qualitatively (not sensed), the mental pulse arranging both halves of Creation’s Idea – concentrated sun or planet or atom etc. that preponderantly radiates Idea and evacuated space that is preponderantly Idea compressed into seed – at first one half sequentially flashing after the other, were then qualitatively known as balanced beats of the same divinely balanced heart. And as the celestial vision of the concentrating beat’s equality with the decentrating beat’s was wholly withdrawn, I then knew my Self to be inseparably one with the command and control of both light effects – the Light Itself.

As sensation was fully withdrawn, the last extra sensory perception was of being in the center of a great hall, and then the purely subjective/qualitative meditation of the Life of the Light intensified until it wholly took over. One with the interchanging point of ‘life’ and ‘death’ – flower and seed – seeming separation between the light and dark disappeared, and I qualitatively knew that light and dark are one simultaneously occurring extension and retraction of Divine Idea for re-extension. 

Unlike prior spiritual experiences which had incorporated the seeming divisions of Light perceived via the sense or memory of motion, nothing had ever been known but the undivided stillness of the divine nature of knowledge and expression.

One with the fulcrum of Mind and extension of balanced thinking I knew the absolute satiation of spiritual desire. There was no beginning nor ending to the qualitative nature of the interchange of ecstatic thought-waves within the stillness of my Self. One with the central balancing rest-point I was perfectly satisfied in the ineffably exquisite Self-existent, un-quantified, dimension-less Realities of knowing the expression of Balance. The State of knowing the qualities of balanced thinking was of knowing pure ecstasy interchanging within my own Self. 

In the face of what I had previously believed could be “the end of me”, I instead wholly agreed with the Inner Voice, and I instantly and completely knew Oneness with Life and the imperceptible mental Realities of the constant of Life’s knowledge and command to express and restore balance. Voluntary release of the fear of death brought me, in a sweet series of indescribably holy instants, to knowing the absolute familiarity of my Self that is the equilibrium of Love, forever unmoved by the seeming-to-be moving manifestations of imagined-to-be dynamic Love.

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