At the moment of conception, light radiates around the egg. You can see it – a flash, like a halo, a corona of illumination. Science now confirms this radiant burst at fertilization – a “zinc spark” visible under a microscope. But it’s more than a chemical reaction. When I look at it, I see a black hole becoming a sun.
In that instant, we witness a divine act: the potential of the egg mated with the focused desire of the sperm. This is not merely biology – it’s cosmology. It’s the living reenactment of the cube-sphere geometry of God’s Mind, as Walter Russell so clearly describes:
“Sex is the division of the father-mother substance of Mind into two opposite conditions of motion… All creating bodies are created by the interchanging motion of sex division in a cube-sphere wave-field. The male-female union simulates the centripetal-concentrative and centrifugal-decentrative powers of Light, projected from and returning to the still point of the Creator’s Mind.” – Walter Russell, The Universal One
The egg and sperm union is centered by Stillness in a wavefield – the cube surrounding the sphere – and simulates the balance point of the Idea of creation itself. A black hole / sun pair of opposites appears /disappears/reappears from stillness via the desire within stillness to simulate idea through sex interchange. The same process creates atoms, stars, bodies, and thoughts. In Russell’s cosmology, this sexed division of light is the way divine Idea seems to become visible form.
“Creation is the imaged form of Idea. The sexed pairs which manifest the One Light divide that Light into pairs of moving opposites, which then seek to unite in order to simulate the stillness of their Source. All matter is thus born in the image of God’s still centering control – expressed as the cube-sphere.” – Walter Russell, Atomic Suicide?
Beyond sense-based observation, we realize that the black hole and the sun are not two. They are one.
It is only an illusion that they are separate. Just as centripetal and centrifugal forces seem to pull apart and push together, they are really just two expressions of one still Cause. The seeming separation between a black hole and a sun, or between sperm and egg, is created by the illusion of motion itself.
The sperm and the egg, like the black hole and sun, are not two becoming one – they are already one in Idea – and their seeming separation for re-combination simulates Oneness. Their union does not create life – it reveals the eternal desire of the Self to express the Idea of Life. The illusion is in our sensed perception that they were ever apart.
The sperm is the ray of projection (like the sun).
The egg is the compressed seed (like the black hole).
But both arise simultaneously within the same wavefield. Both simulate one desire: to image the One Idea in form.
“At the moment of conception, the illusion of separation is voided as the two simulate one – not because something new is created, but because the One Idea chooses to reappear.”
This radiant conception does not “begin” life. It is not the origin of the Self. Life doesn’t happen at conception – nor does it “unhappen” at death. The Self that chooses to express the idea of Life is eternal. The spark at conception is merely the first motion of the body as an image of that eternal Self – a black hole /sun pair expressing God’s still Light.
We were not created from nothing.
We are eternal Idea, in Light.
And we are not destined for death.
Our expressions simply return to Light for re-expression.
Cosmic Man and the Command of Conception: From Birth to Resurrection
To the average human, conception appears as the beginning of life, and death as the end. But to Cosmic Man, these are but two phases of one continuous rhythm. Cosmic Man lives not in the wave, but as master of the wave.
Figures like Thoth – and Christ – represent this archetype. They did not merely submit to conception and death as reactive events. Rather, they consciously commanded them from the center of divine equilibrium. Their life cycles were not mechanical, but musical – composed from stillness, played through the illusion of form, and returned deliberately to silence.
In the teachings of Thoth, conception and resurrection are not separate mysteries. They are one.
The outward projection of desire – conception – and the inward return to Source – resurrection – are two opposed arcs of the same divine pulse, happening simultaneously as one expression of rhythmic balanced interchange.
Projection simulates separation – an unfolding from the stillness of knowing into the sensed motion of form. The return re-gathers motion back to its centering point, voiding it in stillness and restoring the balance of its divided light.
What appears as beginning and ending is, in truth, the rhythmic two-way extension of one eternal Idea in the Mind of God – expressing, voiding, and re-expressing without end.
To the senses, projection and return appear sequential – first conception, then completion. But as explained above, they are simultaneous. The divine pulse does not divide its Identity into “living and dying”. It extends and retracts in the same instant: light turning inside-out and outside-in through the guiding control of the Self’s cube-sphere wavefield. The Master – the illumined one – is not deceived by the illusion of time.
S/He stands always at rest in the flash of union and reunion, where projection and return are one, where light is both radiating and gravitating in perfect balance.
This flash – this eternal knowledge of conception being one with completion – is the ecstatic qualitative nature of stillness/equilibrium I knew as the State in the fire. It is not a moment in time, but the timeless center of the wave, where God’s Idea is known, and the soul resurrects a body through knowing alone.
The master does not forget the origin of his body that centers its wave. He moves through the seeming sequence of the illusion of separation knowingly.
Walter Russell (paraphrase) affirms this capacity in all mankind:
“Man, the image of God, is not bound to motion. He may rise above it and command it.”
Cosmic Man knows that the sperm and the egg do not create life – they obey it. They follow the command of Idea. He knows that resurrection is not escape from death – but the conscious re-gathering of the body’s patterned light back to the Self.
Thoth entered and exited this world not by accident, but by law. He knew how to center his desire so perfectly that form obeyed Mind. His conception, his transmutation, his translation into the next realm – all were conducted like a breath cycle. No resistance. No delay. Just rhythmic, balanced interchange.
Resurrection as Re-Centering: Following the Cube-Sphere Grid of Identity
If the sperm and egg are not truly separate, then conception is not a chance event – it is a precise point in the wavefield of divine expression. And if that is true, then resurrection is also that same point in the same wavefield – a reversal back to balance.
Walter Russell wrote:
“All motion is but a mirror of Idea. There is no life in motion. Life is in the stillness that commands the motion.”
To resurrect consciously is to re-center the Self in the very grid that gave birth to it. The “grid” is the cube-sphere wavefield – the invisible structure of balanced desire, where form is rhythmically borning, voiding, and reborning.
Resurrection is not an act of suicide or willpower. It is a natural consequence of projected Identity returning to equilibrium. The body reappears wherever Identity desires to simulate balance.
Thoth and the Christ followed this wavefield from within. They knew the equators of rebirth – the exact centering point where form could dissolve into Light and reappear again in the image of Idea.
Practicing the Path of Resurrection: Living from the Still Center
One need not wait for death to resurrect the body (heal it). One need not escape the body to return to Light. Resurrection is available in every moment – through desire aligned with Source.
To live the path of resurrection:
Begin each day in stillness. Remember the Light. Follow Soul desire, not reaction. Seek reversal, not resistance. Know that you already are.
And when your body’s cycle naturally returns to the still point of its origin, view it not as the end – but your conscious resurrection of eternal Idea.
Darcie French Aug 4, 2025
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