December 07 and October 09

December 2007, I went to bed one night, and couldn't meditate, I felt like I was holding a live wire. I thought I was having a stroke and was going to die. My teacher, Dr Hawkins, spoke as if he were right there with me. He said, "Well, if you're gonna die, then die!" And … Continue reading December 07 and October 09

The Interchange I Am

This morning my husband complimented my work in the kitchen. He said, "You have gone from can-opener queen to gourmet sandwich maker!" I laughed at the description and yet without skipping a beat, these words from the the Divine Iliad came forth in response, "I am not life. Nor am I death. I am the … Continue reading The Interchange I Am

The Ecstasy of deferring to Supreme Control

One could not move one's little finger, without God's Supreme Control. God is the Source of expression of Idea within, and God controls the time period of the expression from without. God is the still center of the moving-by-interchange sphere, and the still boundaries of the moving-by-interchange cube. Idea lives in God's Love, and dies … Continue reading The Ecstasy of deferring to Supreme Control

The difference between my spiritual awakening experiences and the spontaneous enlightenment that transcended all experience

In December 2007, after a year of spiritual work, there was a period of illumination that lasted several weeks. Perception had gone from perceiving darkness to perceiving light. There was the expanded view from space, wherein it was perceptually understood that the universe is one creating/transforming unit. The "higher state" left after a few weeks, … Continue reading The difference between my spiritual awakening experiences and the spontaneous enlightenment that transcended all experience

The cold blue light before the hot red, and the rebirth of yellow

In September of 2009, just before the full severance from the senses in the fire the next month, there was the experience of rebirth on the side of Boynton canyon, near Sedona AZ, just as a 100 year flash flood appeared from out of nowhere. I had been hiking in the blazing sun, without enough … Continue reading The cold blue light before the hot red, and the rebirth of yellow

Homo Spiritus taking His place in the creating universe

If you are wondering about the metaphysics of creating vs the belief that the creative universe will disappear from perception "for good", check out Walter and Lao Russell's "Atomic Suicide". The creating universe does not disappear; belief in being separate from Creator by creation disappears. We forgot to laugh at the idea of death, and … Continue reading Homo Spiritus taking His place in the creating universe

Glossary of terms: Anthropomorphization

"Anthropomorphization" God is One Being, undivided by the illusion of division into the anthropology of His forms of seeming. Form is motion-embodied thought, it is idea made to seem manifest by setting the Stillness of Oneness in Love of God's Being into the illusion of motion or separation. Any time the perceptual qualities of  "sensed … Continue reading Glossary of terms: Anthropomorphization

Glossary of terms: ACIM

ACIM: A Course in Miracles. A Course in Miracles is about forgiveness of the belief in giving reality to illusion. Forgiveness frees the Mind to rest in God's Absolute Love and to create illusion in tandem with God's thinking (aka manifest God) for eternity vs struggle with the voice for ego and its opinions for … Continue reading Glossary of terms: ACIM

Alleviating homo barbarian’s fear

The sense-lead homo barbarian is terrified of the dark, cold cube that gives the incandescent light of life to be radiated back to its source, yet the appearance of life is an interchange between dark and light. Without the interchange between the exhaustion of life and the rest of death, nothing could appear to be. … Continue reading Alleviating homo barbarian’s fear

Q & A on difference between impersonal God realization and personal God realization or illuminated information and Direct Knowledge

Q: Hello. It’s me again… I have to ask this again in another way… 🙂 In Eastern traditions like Advaita for instance, there is simply One Self, uncreated, that is existence-consciousness-bliss. There is only one infinite soul/being/consciousness. Being infinite and eternal, nothing else can come into existence or be created, because you can’t add anything … Continue reading Q & A on difference between impersonal God realization and personal God realization or illuminated information and Direct Knowledge