I have never been able to afford a “spiritual retreat”; turns out that’s a good thing.
Mother Theresa said on how to contribute to world peace, “stay home and love your families”. Kudos for “me”. I have stuck it out at home without retreating to a more spiritual setting. I was tempted; I passed the test. Unholy relationships of the past are now holy.
What are you retreating from? Look at the split from Love, and mend it. Forget about moving the body from here to there and calling the distance something better than accepting the Atonement Now.